My worries for the day....

I could not get a good night sleep last night. Too many things in my head. My husband and I are in the process of purchasing our 4th home. Actually, two of our homes were inherited, and the other we acquired together. We are considering acquiring another home. This has got me into much serious stress. Do we get it, do we not, etc. You see, if we do get another home, then I would be in another mortgage payment. This isn't really a mortgage though, because we would be paying the landowner instead of the bank (they own the land and home in free and clear title, I know this because I ordered a title search to be done). So, for another year, I would be broke like hell, I mean broke like hell. With my kids in private school, plus they go to private music lessons and also private Japanese class for both, I will be lucky if I even had a damn dollar!

So, is it worth it? These are the things in my head. Naturally anyone would say yes. But my worry is, what if something big comes up this year, I would have no ability to shuffle money around. My idea is to get this house and then get it rented out, like what I have done to our other two houses currently. However, I am unsure if this is the exactly the way it would turn out.

I was also hoping to go on a big vacation, for my entire family. We have not really gone on a trip, as a family, after we moved back from Oregon! I was hoping to go to Japan next month, to splurge on obento items, now, if we do decide on purchasing this house, I would have to cancel my trip. Don't get me wrong though, I would scrounge up every dollar I can get just to buy my obento items! Heck, my husband teases me and says that the obento is more for me and not my kids.. LOL... well, it is my stress reliever. I used to bake alot before, but now my talents have shifted.. (ha @ talents!)

So, what do you think?